What a Wonderful Moment..

Assalamualaikum..

Alhamdulillah, my life is getting better now. Like I'm the one and only lucky girl in this world. Me and my love went for a date for thye first time on October 12, 2008. We went to Port Dickson, Negeri Sembilan. We were studying here in Port Dickson a year ago, but we were never know each other. After I quit studying there, and he also, we get to know each other months later. The story behind our love story on how we knew each other is so sweet for me. I will never ever forget about this. After a few months we declared, we met for the first time, here in Port Dickson. I brought him met my very dear friends, Ain and Fea. See our precious moments here..!

First, we went to lunch in a Mamak Restaurant. Then we went to Teluk Kemang, but only for a few minutes. Here, Ain and Fea showed me my ex-boy, alone with a girl. I know that damn f*****g girl. She's the reason of all the things happen. But it's alright. It doesnt matter anymore. If that damn f******g girl didn't did all this, maybe I will not ever found this great and wonderful man who is really awsome. Nobody can take his place (I love u Zarul.. Muaahhxx..!!). Ok, next..!!

After that, we find another place, where this place is more relaxing, and happy, the BLUE LAGOON..!! Hahaha.. What a wonderful place. But I have no pictures for blue lagoon, except our pictures together. what to do...

Hmm..Let's see how happy we are here.. Hehehe..

Then, we went to Pantai Purnama. Wow...what a B-E-A-Utiful place..! This was zarul's idea. Not bad.. hmm.. hehehe..

Happy eit..?? hehehe..That's us..!!!! Ambam, Ambing, Abang, Ayang.. Hehehe...

We spent our time from lunch until late evening. After send Ain and Fea at their hostel, Zarul send me to KTM Seremban. I went home at Gombak, the place where I studying now. And I start another usual day, till now. We don't know when we will being like this again. Insyaallah, we will....

I miss us..

Look at us..
And the life that we made..
Oh, darlin I wouldn't trade a single thing..
Still in love, But I can't help dream about yesterday..
Oh yesterday..
I miss Sunday mornings free and easy..
Lazy days and endless evenings..
I really thought somehow..
That I'd be over it by now..
And I miss lying in your arms till morning..
With nothing on our minds but making love..
Baby most of all I miss us..
Like a child, I know it is selfish to say but sometimes I want you all to myself..
For a while, Couldn't we go back and play in yesterday..
Oh yesterday..
Walking on the beach alone together..
Sunsets that would last forever..
No where else to be..
Side by side just you and me..
And I miss lying in your arms til morning..
With nothing on our minds but making love..
Baby most of all I miss us..
All that we have lost..
Has all come back as love..
I know thats what family is about..
Still I miss Sunday mornings free and easy..
Lazy days and endless evenings..
I know we'll survive, But it is eating me alive..
And I miss lying in your arms till morning..
With nothing on our minds but making love..
I can't hold it back another minute..
I'm embrassed to admit it..
But I still want to be your everything..
I know all that life has given us is way more than enough,
But darlin' I can't help myself
I just love you too much
Baby most of all
I miss us...

Well, I really wanted to give this song to someone, and hopefully that person would meant it to me too.. But, what can I do..I have no body..^_^.. It's alright.. I just love the lyrics..and the song is so wonderful..so touching..U should hear it.! Kenny Loggins, I miss us.. =D

My Love Problem, is nearly to its end..!

I saw someone's myspace just now..i agree for her words, "LOVE isn't finding someone you can live with.. it's FINDING SOMEONE you CAN"T live without! .." ...that's a very true and beautiful phrase..

Before this, i had dumped more than 5 guys, after 3 years i broke up with my first boyfriend. From that, only two of them i realize, were truly serious to be with me. One of those two, I really felt terrible of him, because I know he was really upset with me. After I said 'NO' to him, he told me that, "let us just pretend like we haven't know each other. I was really shocked of what he had said, but I did nothing to stopped him. The truth is, only after a day he didn't contact me at all, i am trully missed him. I tried to contact him back, but he changed his phone number. How can I not missed him? He shares the same interests with me. He called me sometimes, to chattering around. He was so kind to be care with me. When I think back of what i he had done, he's right. That was the best way to make him forget the worst thing I have ever made towards him. I told about that to my godsister, and she blame me for that. I know, I am so wrong to said no to him. But what can I do? I don't even know how he face was look like. I just know that he was school at somewhere in Ipoh, and his name. How can I trust someone that I don't really know? I was so afraid to fall in love with a stranger because I can't think my life if my soul fall to someone who is wrong! but my godsister said, "you must love the one who loves you, don't find someone you love. or else you will suffer.." . And what she said was true. It happened to me. Someone asked me to be his special girlfriend, and he said he loved me..i agreed, because he is really good in taking my heart, and that time, I am madly in love with him. But after just a few months, we broke up. I can't stand anymore, because he kept saying that he love only someone, and he always talked to me about that girl. I spent lots of times thingking what my godsister had said about love. She was true.

After I broke up with this boy, I kept thingking and thingking, and thingking, what are the best way to heal the wound in my heart? For all these times, i've been so crazy because i failed again in love. This love thing being the most topic i hate. But there's a person, she's a lecturer in my college, advice me on this thing. I think back of what she said, and I can take her opinion. I really thanked Allah for He let me found someone to help me. I also found someone who had a love story just like me (Oh, His Greatness again..). Now, this woman told me about, trying to love someone who love me. She told me everything, and I believe her, because I can see that she really had a wonderful life, with a loving, funny husband and 5 kids. Her daughter is just about my age. I hope my life will end up like this lucky woman.

One more thing, there's a friend, a boy, made my mind lighter from all these thing. He asked me for my story about my ex-boyfriend. Usually, I don't wanna told people about that. But, he is my good friend, and I trust him, i can keep my secret, so I told him. He was totally shocked, with an amazing unbelievable face when he know my story! I just laughed at him (yeah, it's my silly mistake..hmm..). I thought, he's gonna blame me for that, but he wasn't. He told me, he had did the same thing to a girl. That means, he's like the character of my ex-boyfriend in my story. I was suprised. However, i can take his reason for that. He told me why do he did that. The answer for my problem has revealed one by one. This time, I took all the advices from these people, and I'm normal back. Alhamdulillah, I'm fine... Thanks to Allah, for made my way to find these people.