My Love Problem, is nearly to its end..!

I saw someone's myspace just now..i agree for her words, "LOVE isn't finding someone you can live with.. it's FINDING SOMEONE you CAN"T live without! .." ...that's a very true and beautiful phrase..

Before this, i had dumped more than 5 guys, after 3 years i broke up with my first boyfriend. From that, only two of them i realize, were truly serious to be with me. One of those two, I really felt terrible of him, because I know he was really upset with me. After I said 'NO' to him, he told me that, "let us just pretend like we haven't know each other. I was really shocked of what he had said, but I did nothing to stopped him. The truth is, only after a day he didn't contact me at all, i am trully missed him. I tried to contact him back, but he changed his phone number. How can I not missed him? He shares the same interests with me. He called me sometimes, to chattering around. He was so kind to be care with me. When I think back of what i he had done, he's right. That was the best way to make him forget the worst thing I have ever made towards him. I told about that to my godsister, and she blame me for that. I know, I am so wrong to said no to him. But what can I do? I don't even know how he face was look like. I just know that he was school at somewhere in Ipoh, and his name. How can I trust someone that I don't really know? I was so afraid to fall in love with a stranger because I can't think my life if my soul fall to someone who is wrong! but my godsister said, "you must love the one who loves you, don't find someone you love. or else you will suffer.." . And what she said was true. It happened to me. Someone asked me to be his special girlfriend, and he said he loved me..i agreed, because he is really good in taking my heart, and that time, I am madly in love with him. But after just a few months, we broke up. I can't stand anymore, because he kept saying that he love only someone, and he always talked to me about that girl. I spent lots of times thingking what my godsister had said about love. She was true.

After I broke up with this boy, I kept thingking and thingking, and thingking, what are the best way to heal the wound in my heart? For all these times, i've been so crazy because i failed again in love. This love thing being the most topic i hate. But there's a person, she's a lecturer in my college, advice me on this thing. I think back of what she said, and I can take her opinion. I really thanked Allah for He let me found someone to help me. I also found someone who had a love story just like me (Oh, His Greatness again..). Now, this woman told me about, trying to love someone who love me. She told me everything, and I believe her, because I can see that she really had a wonderful life, with a loving, funny husband and 5 kids. Her daughter is just about my age. I hope my life will end up like this lucky woman.

One more thing, there's a friend, a boy, made my mind lighter from all these thing. He asked me for my story about my ex-boyfriend. Usually, I don't wanna told people about that. But, he is my good friend, and I trust him, i can keep my secret, so I told him. He was totally shocked, with an amazing unbelievable face when he know my story! I just laughed at him (yeah, it's my silly mistake..hmm..). I thought, he's gonna blame me for that, but he wasn't. He told me, he had did the same thing to a girl. That means, he's like the character of my ex-boyfriend in my story. I was suprised. However, i can take his reason for that. He told me why do he did that. The answer for my problem has revealed one by one. This time, I took all the advices from these people, and I'm normal back. Alhamdulillah, I'm fine... Thanks to Allah, for made my way to find these people.