I think i've lost my mind...

Hmm.. It's been 4 weeks since me and him being 'cold' and silent.. We've talked sometimes, but the way talked was just like we we've been known only a month.. Ya Allah.. Please, give me your strength to fight this feelings..I am really not strong like i used to. Ya Allah, the Greatest of All..

Day by day, i've been alone, i'm trying to run away from this painful situation.. but it's so hard to do.. All the time, everything i do, i just kept thingking of him.. Only his name, his face, his voice playing around in my mind.. This is so..... i don't know what else i can say about my feeling.. it's just so hard to breath..so painful..I don't know until when i can hold on like this.. but i wish i can be strong someday, until forever.. Until i find someone, who needed my love.. who is i know, needed my love, and i need his to..

This is not truly me, but i just really don't know how long i can hold on.. I hope, with this, in writing my feelings here, I will chill a little, and try to hold on..