Love Sucks..!!

I don't what's going on with me now. I thought, I can rely on him !. I want him to help me to control myself. I want to be happy and cheerful like I used to. But he didn't give a damn care or help to me! It's not like, I want him to pay back all my kindness to him. I just want someone, who I've trusted for a long time, help, guide me to my past. I know we all suppose to move forward. But why should I move forward if that move will make me more suffer and sad? I've been crying everyday, sometimes in day, and always wheh at night. I don't think I can hold on any longer. Maybe, he want to see me dying in suffer, so that he can be satisfied. He always told me, he do all these things because he wants to revenge. I have to feel all the sadness. I must feel what he had always felt. Maybe, my way are to harsh for u. But I had say these to u long time ago right? Shouldn't u always alert and be ready. Besides, I let u know about these things slowly. One by one. Didn't u understand? Why? Why is it so hard for u to understand me? I always give my very best to understands u. I did gave u all my heart, my soul, my life, my feeling for u, and gave all these thing to understands u, so that u won't feel bad. But when it comes to me, I AM RELYING ON U..! I WANT U..!! I NEEDED U..! but u just seems can't to know and understands me.

My dear GreenA_ _ _E,

I have told u thousands of times about me, about u, and about us. The more I want to get away from u, the more love for u comes in me. but, u will not get my love for u. I'm gonna save it, forever, because I am not strong anymore to be hurt. I can't stand anymore my love. This is the end. Of course, I will pray for your happiness out there, I love u. That's why. But u will never understands me. I will never be yours again. So long my dear.....

Assalamualaikum......